20 March 2012

Ovidrel Nipples

So I woke up this morning with very big nipples. Breast feeding nipples. I'm guessing it's the Ovidrel because it's been more than three years since I had a breastfeeder, NOT that she wouldn't start up again if given the choice. At 5.

I also have a bloated, bruised tummy, my skin is quite hideous and I am ever so emotional. I am so hoping that this is all worth going through and I get my baby. Our baby. An online friend I made in the Adenomyosis group, who was a month ahead of me in IVF treatment has been unsuccessful. I am so upset for her. She has been a strength for me and a great source of knowledge. I so hope she is successful when she and her husband try again in June. It's days like this when I remember how very lucky I am to have one baby!

So today I'm focusing on miracles. I have one VERY cute IVF nephew, he makes his Mummy very, very happy. She wanted him for a long time! I have a friend who ten years after she was diagnosed as being in early menopause (she was 26) has twin boys. She carried them full term after IVF treatment with her husband and an amazing woman who donated eggs. They are so very much my friend's precious babies!!! I have another friend online who is pregnant despite huge endometriosis complications and fascinating anatomy ones. She has two uteruses (uteri?) amongst other difficulties but she has a second miracle on the way after years of trying for each. The world is filled with miracle babies.

Infertility sucks. It's a silent heartbreak where no one knows what to say. I used to think everyone who wanted one desperately should be blessed with one baby. I'm being greedy. Now I'm going for two. I also hope everyone going through IVF and looking at this blog are successful. Hang in there and have faith xxx


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