Something Exciting and Scary Takes a Scary Turn

Today is a very exciting day. My blog has been accepted on Top Mommy Blogs which makes me feel seriously cool and terribly important. You can even vote for my blog as your favourite if you click on the link at the top of my page. To be honest, I have yet to read about what it all means. Despite the fact blogging life just got exciting, my pregnancy just took a step towards 'so much more stressful than my nerves can necessarily deal with'.

The good news is, for the time being, baby's heart is still beating and no abnormalities can be seen. The baby has grown a millimetre more than expected and is now due on 11.12.12, although an ivf baby is one which doesn't need asking when it was conceived. Everyone knows. There were LOTS of people in the room. So of course I'm sticking to the due date of 12.12.12. Because it is cool. Because it is a desired due date. Because it is obviously so lucky. And I need lucky!

The bad news is that yesterday afternoon I started bleeding. Lots. Not red blood but brown blood but lots. It isn't spotting. So even though the scan says everything is ok, I need all the prayers and fingers crossed and beggings that everything will be ok that I can muster. It no longer seems quite so important what the baby is called, I just want there to be a baby.

So I am trying to stay calm, trying not to go to the toilet (I have kept my eyes closed today the two times I've been), I am feeling pretty desperate. My Rabbit is off school again today. She is getting over her cold and wanted to stay home. And I need the company. Mr G is at work and my mother is off to the hairdressers. So without my wee truant I don't think I could stay calm.

                             Even if today I'm not very funny!